New Wave
A Letter To My Friends
When you ask how I am and I say that I'm fine
I have a confession and it's that I have been lying
It's easier to lie than to explain my mood
Easier to turn to other vices like comfort food
I don't know how to explain the way I've been feeling
Everyday I wake up wishing I was still dreaming
Because the dream world is easier, no complications
Nothing can stop me I have no limitations
Back in the real world, depression is real
It makes me withdrawn and incapable of saying how I feel
It eats me up and life becomes a chore
And sometimes I just don't wanna talk about it anymore
I don't want to worry you with all of my issues
So I tend to just confide in my box of tissues
Your love is not disputed, I know that you care
You're one call away and will always be there
But sometimes it's difficult to be so transparent
Especially when my behaviour becomes so aberrant
So I'm sorry for lying but at least now you know
That I'm not being difficult it's just hard to show..
My feelings inside and how they're effecting me
I'm learning to deal with my problems effectively
Next time you ask how I am, I won't say I'm fine
Unless it's the truth, I'm done with lying
I'll tell you the truth if my tears are falling
And if a bad mood comes on without warning
I'll give a text if I need an ear
Or give you a call if I need you here.